It's really amazing how fat I feel right now. There's just sooo much left on me and I hate it. This week should be free of distractions so I should lose about 3lbs at least. I need to go buy a new scale because I left it in Jersey :( but the weather's been so bad with all the rain and snow so I'm scared to drive anywhere. I just feel so horrible, but I'm in the library and surrounded by a dowdy, heavy chicks (not to be mean but they really aren't attractive) so I don't feel like killing myself at least.
Nothing new on the boys front. I really hate when I see friends that I haven't seen in awhile and they ask me about my relationship status. And I have to keep saying "No, nothing yet." It used to not bother me b/c I've never been on the hunt for a boyfriend, but now at 21 with no kiss I feel like something's wrong with me.
Sitting down my thighs look like sausages in my skinny jeans..fat greasy sausages. But they'll look like this soon.
UPDATE: 19g net carbs today..nice.
|If I could look entirely like her I could die happy.|