My parents celebrate when I eat. It makes me feel like a failure. The smiles on their faces are signs of defeat to me. I was very good up until 8pm. Only veggies, fruit and some peanuts, then dinner out with my parents. I split a salad with my Dad and had a seared tuna and asparagus appetizer as my entree. Then I get home and have 1 orange, some more peanuts, 4 marshmallows, 1 bottle of Graduate puffs (baby food), 1 apple, and 1 Kit-Kat piece. Damn. No exercise outside today, either. Just 30mins worth of jumping jacks and high knee twists. Probably just 200 calories lost. I'm guessing 1,200 today, versus 500 yesterday.
I need to be more consistent. I need to be happier. I'm very sick of crying at least once everyday, about anything. I want that damn spin bike. It's coming Friday, but we aren't going home until next Wednesday :( I want structure! There are too many seconds in the day! Too much time to think, cry, and eat! When we get home my days are going to be as such:
wake up & take diet pill (11am)
eat breakfast (11:30am)
spin for 1 hour while watching TV (12:30pm)
shower (1:30pm)
study for GRE for 2 hours (2pm)
take diet pill (3:30pm)
eat lunch (4pm)
spin for 1 hour while watching TV (5pm)
study for GRE for 1 hour (6pm)
eat dinner? (7pm)
spin until bedtime (9pm)
shower (11pm)
sleep (2am)
STRUCTURE! Love y'all. XO.
1200 isn't bad at all, and pretty much everything you ate was healthy!! Haha, I love those graduate puffs. I buy them and then hide them in boxes of normal crackers...
ReplyDeleteAnd go you, only one piece of KitKat! I probably would have eaten like 100. Chocolate short circuits my brain. :/